So this is the new year

"And I don't feel any different...

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions."

-Death Cab for Cutie

That kind of sums up my feelings about new years hype. I don't usually do resolutions because, while I understand the human desire to look at the changing of the date as a fresh start, I also can't usually think of any attainable resolutions and I don't want to make a list of things that I'll fall short of. Also, I like to believe that we can create change and form resolutions any time we'd like. Maybe October 7th will be the day I decide to clear my slate. We don't need to feel like January 1st is our only chance.

Of course, I am human, and I do find a comforting feeling of a new hope with the new year. It is nice to find ourselves facing a blank 12 months we have yet to fill, stories yet to be written.

This year I graduate college. And then....

Well, I really don't know. And from where I'm standing that's equal parts exhilarating and terrifying.

I'm fascinated at how I've come full circle in four years of college. I began having no idea of what major/career I wanted to pursue, I slowly figured it out, I did some internships and realized I may not want to do what I though, I worked with our wonderfully helpful career services and now I'm back to not knowing what I want to do. Only, I'm nothing like I was four years ago. I've made peace with the uncertainty of the future, even if it is still terribly daunting at times, and I'm game to create my own path in life and figure things out as I go. You can't force passion and you can't demand knowledge before its time. I don't think I'm supposed to have it all figured out.

Happy New Year, friends. Make it what you want it to be and never be afraid to redefine what it is you want.